Last Week~

Last weekend was grand. It made me quite angry that the Blurb program wasn't working with my book so Shay couldn't see my progress. I have all my photographs chosen and most of them he hasn't seen yet and I want some feedback. I guess I'll put them on here later so he can look at them. Most of the ones he hasn't seen are of my friends and I was worried there wasn't enough varriation in them for that section. I know that it's my book and if I want I can have more than five photographs per section, but at the same time I want to keep it uniform. It's a difficult thing, really. I want it to be mine, but at the same time I don't want it to be unprofessional. It's not something I thought I'd struggle with but I am. I think I'll just end up doing what I want and not necessarily what the 'norms' of society want. This is my book and I will express my view on the world the way I see it. That is deffinatly something I learned with photography; every one has a different way of seeing one picture and there is not 'wrong' or 'right' way of doing things. There is only your way of doing it. I used to have this big comparing my work to others problem, mainly with my photography, but now it's not so bad. It's normal for people to want to be 'better' and liked more in their talents. But I'm not sure if photography is a talent for me or not. I picked it up out of the blue and always thought my camera was the reason my photos looked decent. It's still difficult to say that it isn't just my camera from my view, so that's why other's opinions really help. But I guess I'm almost ignoring that because with my book I want to show people how I've improved and I don't care too much about what other's think because I am making a book!
Anyway, last weekend because Blurb wasn't working so I couldn't show Shay my progress, he let me borrow his view camera. It was so much fun! I just love film cameras and he gave me the fill to get processed. Half the fun for film camera's is waiting to see what you're going to get. I wish I had access to a dark room and knew how to use one because I know it would make photography something much more magical for me. Either earlier that week or the week before I put new film into my fisheye camera I have. I have one roll that needs to be processed,but I'm going to wait until I get the roll I'm working on done so I can turn them all in together. That, and I'm postponing it because I don't have enough money right now for it...My next paycheck is going towards the book becaue I know if I pay for it, I will feel so much more accomplished! I will be very proud of myself when this is all done. I'm so excited to see the finished product and show it off a bit. C:< I think that's all for last week other than me about 70% done with my book. All I need to do is finish the decorations of the book, fill in the Acknowlagments, Table of contents, About the Author, etc. That and the cover is the hardest thing to decide on! But I'm pretty sure I know what I want. C:<

Two weeks ago!

Most I've slacked on my journals so far. But I remember that week. It was star testing, a glorious week. I felt very at ease with my project, but not with my community service. I was putting my project on the back burner because I had to get my community service finished and ready to turn it! In the end, it was all for nothing. Freeman hasn't offically even 'collected' it yet and hasn't mentioned it. (All those nights staying up until 2AM were wasted...) Now it's hard to recall if I took photographs that week, but I don't think I did. I belive I did for my DVC class, but nothing I found fondly enough for the book. Now that I think about it, there is one photograph that I had taken for the community service project that I concidered. It was one of a brightly colored bird and it was acutally the only picture that wasn't completely blurry of the bunch. Yet, I love so many of the ones I have of my friends I'm not sure if I'm going to have animals be part of the section anymore, might just be people again. I think I'm getting behind on my journals because things are rapping up and there is less and less to say. Now I know that this week I didn't get to see Shay because his son has a surprise visit in the area. I was fine with that because that meant I got to sleep in Sunday. B-] Kay. Not much happened this week. Oh! But I finished my report before Friday. I got to skip school because I finished to visit SF with my boy friend. It was half a date and half a photography experience. I don't recall if there are any 'winners' of the bunch at first sight, but I'll take another look.
I forgot to mention that I worked a lot, lot lot! on my book outline. I got most of it done, but not photograhs wise, just decorations wise and such.